deep in blogger lull

Now that the blog is back up, and the posts have convened back to this arena, you'd think I would have tons to share. All the things I've done in my little absence from Blogger, they should amount to the sky. but alas, they don't. Actually since getting back from Iowa, I haven't done much. Been half-heartedly searching for a job, not really interested in any of them. I don't know whats happened, it seems like i'm in a lull, a rut, a quandary. Days melt together, and things don't seem to matter much. I wake up at 11 or 12 each day, and don't go to sleep until usually after 2 am each night. I actually long to be busy, yet when I have something to do, I end up giving up cause it's too much activity. I seem to be like Pedro these days. Answering people's questions with one word replies, speaking in a monotone, colorless, tastless voice. I catch myself sitting with a blank stare on my face, seemingly in deep thought, but really thinking about nothing. It's spring and I should be at the gym, working on myself for the summer, but as of yet I haven't. Maybe the winter is harder to leave then I thought it was. Maybe my mind is still back in Iowa, in the grey weather and endless hours of nothing. I need to wake up. the matrix must have me.