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space around us seems lighter
the light around your face seems brighter
and no matter how much i deny
it becomes harder with each try

so fast you have come about
just a blur in front of my eyes
something i try to focus on
judging depth, weight and size

and as soon as the start began
the end seems like it is here
just when courage was starting to build
it's replaced by that one fear

and after sunrise and sunset
i will choose to forget
throw those thoughts away
let them end with the passing day

numbers and equations run through my mind
analyzing and reanalzying hoping the answer i'll find
knowing the chemical inbalance is the reason why
that the logic and resolve slip right by

pondered, and wondered, but never over thought
flirted, toyed with, but never fully sought
constant scenarios played out in time
lack of diction, leads to silent pantomime

choices that i can't take back
feelings of loss i'm starting to lack
a complex complexion i can't erase
with that attitude written on my face.