Three Poems, One Day

Well I’d have to say this is where we end,
No longer are you a friend,
And its weird to say those things,
Cause I don’t know what the future brings.

You say I don’t like him,
Can you really blame me?
Those years so long ago
They have faded so slowly.

Its seems long ago that you wrote me those words,
Even though today im writing these for you,
We have grown so very apart
Seems like we’ve been split into so much more than two,

And your going to say those vows,
And im not going to be there to hear,
Maybe it’s that closure to me that’s absurd
Maybe it’s your look that I fear,

And when I see you, it’s that empty feeling
Nothing there left to keep
Wake without those memories,
Forget you in my dreams,
Losing you all along, but never any sleep.

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For the first time im lost for words,
Thinking how you affect my mind
How can I ever keep looking for what I want?
When you’re the only thing I ever find?

This has become quite redundant
Do we even remember what the fight was for?
Were not the same people,
Not the one’s we were before,

And this is where we part
Eventhough we know it may be tough
I really do love you,
But I love you just not enough.

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I could pick and go,
And do away with all I have accomplished,
Has it all become enough for me?
Is that all what I want it to be?

If I never showed the desire to heal
Would I still have this to feel?
If I had no desire for closure,
Would I still have the same exposure?

Nothing is pure concrete,
Just as it has always been,
Here I am waiting it out,
Tediously watching it happen again.

If there was no reward to reap,
Would I just have stayed asleep,
Was it easier back then?
Is it easier to just get up and walk away?
I still have my chance, and I just may.