welcome to 2005

well here i am. unemployed, nappy haired, unshaven with a beard and my mouth still sore from the beating it took on thursday. 4 wisdom, and 1 molar (moller?) they removed from me. i honestly dont remember much, just getting to the dentist's office, taking some pills and feeling a bit drowsy. then one of the girls called me in and walked me over to the dentist's chair. i felt a bit dizzy, but otherwise ok. i remember her saying "man your a big guy, I don't know who's going to carry you out." Big guy? well considering she was like 5'2" or 5'3", then yeah i guess i was a big guy. she sat me down on the chair, turned off the lights and got me a blanket. i seem to remember her carrying a baby. a baby? a baby in a dentist's office? in my blur, i remember her explaining she was babysitting. i guess she just did that, she made sure people's children were ok while they underwent their dental work. i remember them reclining the chair, putting the mask over my mouth nose, and them telling me to take deep breaths. i remember taking a few, then that was it. i was out.

i remember hearing faintly the sound that wood makes when it's being broken. the splintering sound as it cracks. I realized in my drugged state that that was my tooth they were pulling away. i felt no pain.

i woke up to a nurse telling me it was over. they had a wheelchair (that was their solution to carrying me) and i flopped onto the wheelchair. after this i remember even less. i dont remember leaving, i dont remember the drive, i don't remember anything. the next memory i have is waking up at leti's house on the couch. they woke me up because i had my head down and i was spilling blood out of my mouth onto my shirt. i remember that night trying to take my pills, which i had a very hard time doing. i looked in the mirror, my mouth red with blood and gauze. i remember leaving and coming here to my sister's house. that night i slept in a chair because they said i couldn't lay flat. i hate sleeping in chairs, but i was too out of it to know. yesterday i used the last of my gauze as the bleeding stopped. i can't eat anything hard, so my lunch and dinner consisted of mashed potatoes and mac and cheese that my brother brought me from KFC. i welcomed 2005 while sitting on a chair, drugged up with gums swollen and stitched. joy.

about 2 am i felt i needed to get out, and my brother wanted a candy bar. i wasnt drugged or drowsy, so i got in my car and went up to the corner store. it was closed. so i continued on to another corner store. on the way back i saw what i didn't want to see. i was waiting to turn left at the light, the second car behind a XTerra. The light turned green and the cars (there was quite a lot of cars for being 2 am) on the oncoming traffic started to cross. first in line was a dark ford explorer. as she made her way into the intersection, another car, and dark older camry was turning onto the same road, on the inside lane. business as usual. within a second though, and white buick, or older car came through the intersection. i don't know if this person was drunk or if they seriously thought they were going to beat the light, but the slammed into the explorer on the driver's side. they were going atleast 80. he hit the woman in the explorer so hard, she spun twice and hit the camry who was turning. the ford's side was completley smashed, the front ripped off and two tires totally torn off. The camry was scrapped and smashed on the side, with the glass broken. The man got out, his hand bleeding and wounds to the face. the woman stayed in her explorer, she looked ok, but she wasn't moving. i saw her get her cell phone out, so i knew she was alive. the white car was totalled. the hood was completely smashed in towards the dash and all the tires were blown. the back suffered quite a bit of damage also, due to the impact. bumpers and glass lay all over the intersection. the people in the Xterra ahead of me got out, and tried to help. they called the police and they and a ambulance and a fire truck were there very soon after. a cop asked us if we were hurt and we said no, and he asked us to leave. he said they had other witnesses and didn't need for us to tell them what happened. i dont know if the person in the white car lived. i don't see how they could have. hopefully they did. before we left i remember the guy in the Xterra asking me "did you go anywhere tonight?" i said no, explained to him i had stitches in my mouth, and that my brother wanted a candy bar. i left in a sort of shock, just seeing that happen before my eyes. i got back, explained to my brother, and gave him his candy bar.

i woke up at 12 today. i actually slept on the couch this time. the bleeding has seemed to have stopped altogether. i feel better, but still can't eat much. can't drink soda. only soft things, and only water.

so it's a new day, a new year, and it's starting out just how i thought.