Well as today is the day I turn 25, I thought I would make a list. A list of things that have happened to me. Things I’ve come to know. Things that I have accomplished. Things that have molded me into the person I am now. 25 things for 25 years. All the places I’ve been, people I’ve met, things I’ve done, and circumstances I’ve put up with, let’s hope I’ve learned something.
1. I’ve lost both parents in death. I put this as number 1, because nothing else has changed me more.
2. I’ve learned that I can love. And love deeply. Unconditionally. This I am proud of.
3. I’ve come to know that being single is not the End of The Universe. End of World maybe. But not the Universe.
4. I learned that no matter how hard I try to disagree, my conscience is always right.
5. I’ve come to know that however much I hate it and yet love it at the same time, San Antonio is, and always will be my home.
6. I know now, that I can eat a whole bag of Doritos and a 2 liter of Pepsi in one sitting.
7. I also know that if I run, work out and eat right, I do actually lose weight. Incredible.
8. I’ve never owned an American made automobile. But yet Japanese food doesn’t appeal to me.
9. I have finally acquired what I have always wanted. A Laptop.
10. I’ve begun to set goals ahead of me again. A trait I have been lacking in past years.
11. I have managed to have a relationship with 2 different girls from Mexico (at different times of course). I have also watched those relationships crumble apart, the first taking 3 months, the second taking 3 years.
12. I’ve managed to avoid baldness. For now.
13. I’ve finally acquired a dresser drawer. It’s take years, but I finally got one.
14. I’ve been to some of the most romantic places, at some of the most romantic times, without the person I wanted to be romantic with.
15. I’ve seen France. But couldn’t find the “place where the naked ladies dance.” “the whole in the wall where the men see it all” couldn’t be located either.
16. I’ve seen London. Well as it would go then, I guess I have seen London and I’ve seen France. But yet I still haven’t seen any underpants. Or have I?
17. I’ve learned that writing is my true therapy. No matter how awful I feel, nothing heals the soul better then ranting in a notebook.
18. I’ve learned that time goes on. No matter how hard something is, time helps. It makes pain fade, it dulls suffering. It doesn’t make it disappear, but it helps numb it.
19. I’ve learned that no matter how hard you try, things still will not work out the way you want them to. Life is cruel. Unfair and unforgiving.
20. I’ve also learned, life being that way, requires action. It requires you doing something about your situation. Hard work that is accomplished, even though sometimes unrewarded, is still counted as accomplished.
21. I enjoy the company of others very much, but yet find myself mostly alone.
22. I have learned that I still do not know what the term “broasted” means.
23. I have learned that I love Mexico. The land, the people, the food, the culture. I can see why my dad loved my mom.
24. I have stamps in my passport.
25. I have decided to never stop learning, laughing, and loving. I accept defeat humbly, but I refuse to expect it.
3 comments:
Robbie,
Again, you show insight and wisdom for your age. That is one of the things that I truly do admire about you. But I can say that 20 and 21 do have a common link. Being with someone requires action. Being in the company of friends, REAL frends (and you know what I am talking about) requires action. Don't ever let a bad situation spoil your truly unique personality for everyone else. You have learned that you can truly love. Learn how to trust, and remember to never let yourself be abused. That, I feel, is what you let happen in your last relationship. Remember that deviding line. I'm not sure that you understand this: People LIKE being around you. I don't think you either see that, or just don't like being around yourself, I'm not sure. We'll all be alright in the end anyway, wont we?
mike: i agree. and about the last relationship. i wouldn't say i was abused, but slightly taken advantage of. she doesn't know what she wants, and because of that she didn't want to say no. but i much rather hear no, then maybe. but you know it's all in the past now, a learning experience. now, the next time i decide to try something with someone, i'll make sure it's mutual. i hate to bring her up, but becky, eventhough she had her own issues (as everyone does), she was just as crazy about me as I was her. she wanted to be with me, she did things to prove that she wanted to be with me. at times it seemed she was more into me then me into her. that was awesome.
apryl: that's sort of unfair to the world baked. it only gets the "b" and the word roasted gets the whole word.
"It's not quite breakfast, and it's not quite lunch. But you get some cantelope at the end..." - Jaques
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