fitter, happier, more productive...

well it's getting to end of another week, and here i am again sitting in my chair at home. sweaty cause i just got in from the gym, my legs still aching a bit from yesterday's session. i feel good though, lighter, and more in shape. i'm well under 200 lbs now. i would say in the lower 190's. i will weigh myself tomorrow to be exact.

well things have changed a bit. looks like my vacation of unemployment will soon be ending, and then I will be back working my 30-40 hours a week. part of me is sad to see it all go, but the other part is happy to get back into the workforce, to actually be part of the workforce majority, instead of sucking umeployment from you lovely tax payers. I had a good run. It's not every day that you can just take 6 months off and not work, yet still have some type of income coming in. I'm glad i've done it, it's gave me a chance to get back to the person i want to be. i'm definately happier, in many ways. The confusion and drama of past relationships are gone now, and make way for a possible new one. all is yet to be written though. I'm definately happier with my physique, just being leaner and thinner helps me be happier. Feels great to be able to wear my older clothes. As as the job market goes, i went to a job fair today and interviewed with a lady about a position at a good company. She said she was impressed with my resume, and wrote down my name for a interview next week. So that looks promising. So my life is looking on the up and up. In the past when things were going good, I used to always be afraid. Afraid and worried that things were going so good, that the bad was always going to creep up and ruin it all. But you know, I'm not thinking that way anymore. I already know the bad will be there, I know it will ruin somethings. And that's ok. Compared to what I was living through back then, any amount of bad is still much better. My life is starting to be what I want it to be, slowly, but still surely. Happiness, security, and even the possible hint of love and all those things I have missed out of over the last 4 years are starting to show their faces again. Life is getting better for me. So with that, I'm going to go now. Hope all of you are safe and happy with the ones you love. Because I am getting back to that myself.