another sunday

another sunday. here i am at home. this weekend has been eventful. not all good events though. friday i went out with J & L and we had a few drinks. i was tired, so i spent the night over at their house. in my room i guess you could say. it's almost like my own room. i woke up to bad news. my phone was ringing and ringing. henry and lisa had left messages. i called henry and he told me the news. three kids, well young adults i guess you could say, got in a car accident. two of them i have known since i was about 14. growing up they lived really close to my high school, they actually went to the elementary school next door, so i used to go over and baby sit them until their mom got home and my sister would pick me up. the other kid (i say kid as if im so old) was their step brother, his dad married their mom after their parents seperated. so it was one girl about 18 or 19 and two boys who were about 20 or so. maybe younger or older. well the girl was driving, and she suffered some head trauma, but was released. her brother, he broke some ribs, broke a bone in his back, and has to wear a plastic back brace for 12 weeks. he will live. sadly, their step brother died in the crash. i'd say he was about 19 or 20. maybe younger. i didnt know him too well, because eventhough i know most of the family (which is a big one) i didnt really know his parents all to well. well i laid on my bed, wondering what to do. i just sat there, everytime i hear something like this, i always remember my experiences. i guess you just can't help but think of those things. so i called my sister because she had left a message, and told her what i knew. leti called me and eventually her and kevin came to get me. we ate, and then later in the day went to the hospital. well saw shane, he looked beat up, but he was talking, he said the brace was very uncomfortable. he was in better spirits then i thought. that kids been throught a lot. just when i think about my life being hard, i think of him and the things he has gone through. things he didn't have to go through. whereas my things are most of time things i put my ownself through. the funeral is on tuesday i believe. another funeral. i wonder how many more we'll have before the end of this system. i dont know. but you know, today i feel good. i woke this morning, got ready and went to the meeting. i feel satisfied with myself. we went to eat after, and i got to see family i hadn't seen in a while. the extended family from Holland are here, so that was nice also. and after i took a brother home, his parents threw him out of the house, and he had to get a little apartment. he has almost nothing. he gets money from the government because he is disabled, and he works for some brothers to make extra money. he doesn't have a bed, just some covers to sleep on the floor. he has no computer, no tv, just a small radio and some books. in the fridge, he has a hamburger, some left overs from today, some fish he caught, and 5 beers. simple. he told me he was going to stay home, he was going to fix his apartment up, unpack what little things he had. but he decided to go the meeting. he tapped me to talk during the watchtower. he was stressed, crying because he was depressed about fighting with his parents. but he wanted to be there at the meeting, he wanted to go out to service, he always kept that first. and you know, i think a person like him, simple minded and in life, he could have more then anyone. he has the will to serve Jehovah, he has a clear conscience. that cannot have a value put on it. life should be simple. i believe that's how we are supposed to live. not care free, but simple. i have constantly been trying to make my simple, but it seems it only gets more complicated. maybe that's how it supposed to be. now i just remember back to when i thought my life was simpler, because at that time i thought it was complicated also. if only i knew then what i know now. would have saved myself lots of trouble. either way, whats done is done. no going back. well im here for the rest of the night i think, just gonna relax. turn up my spanish guitar music and chill. i like sundays. well i hope all is well with everyone. take care of yourselves and your neighbors. adios.