well today has been pretty slow. i'm still not 100% in health so i don't feel to chipper. tonight i was supposed to go out with some friends, but i'm thinking i might just go home. i haven't really made up my mind. my mind. you know sometimes i wish i could just turn it off and reboot. too many thoughts that pass through my mind. thoughts that i don't want to think. not bad, perverse thoughts, just things i really don't want to think about. i've been told i have a big imagination, and that's not always a good thing. conclusions just seem to leap my way. i don't know, maybe i get worried over stupid things. maybe i don't trust, maybe both. and its hard to combat the negative thoughts in my head, it's hard to reassure myself that that's not how things are. it's hard living, when all you think about is the end, even before the beginning. it tends to just ruin everything. i don't know how to describe it. i don't know how to convey it. maybe someday someone can understand what i mean, someone i can tell. i guess until then it will be kept in my mind. my poor brain.
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