weathered

you know i know song writing is tough. it's hard to put your thoughts down in a format that can be used along with music. its not easy to create a chorus, meaningful verses, without sounding cheesy or lame. someone wise beyond her years once told me, you either have the talent or you don't. the better singers and songwriters prove themselves by their staying power. it's not about winning awards, eventhough that does help, it's about being consistent. someone who might appear to be a good singer/songwriter, might not be very good at all. take courtney love for instance. her band had a good second album, but that doesn't mean she is a good singer/songwriter. and that leads me to the reason why im writing this. there is a song i've heard that to me, the lyrics, the arrangement is great. that's weird too, because it comes from a band that I have hated for the whole time they were together. I even wrote my own thoughts about how bad they sucked. they were like the vanilla ice of rock. everyone loved to hate them. now they are broke up, so it doesn't matter, but back in the hayday of my rock n roll years (when my music mattered as much as my friends) they were a joke. but i guess those days were young, and stupid. like me. i've since gotten a wee bit older, and yes it might be hard to believe, but i've gotten a wee bit wiser. or maybe a bit more mature. hehe. but either way, this song struck a cord with me. maybe it said everything i've felt. maybe it sums up my life in a nutshell. maybe it's still a bit lame. but yeah, so am i. so here it is, weathered is its name. i'm not going to post the name of the band for fear of unbearable shame. if you truly want to know who it is, be smart and look it up under the song name. i picked this song though, cause it accurately describes how i feel or have felt. i don't often like complain and whine about how hard life has been, because I realize I'm no special case. but i do agree when someone gets the words right. so in this case, eventhough i don't care for the singer much, the words are right for me. they apply in many ways. so enough talk, here it is.

weathered

i lie awake on a long dark night
i can't seem to tame my mind
slings and arrows are killing me inside
maybe i can't accept the life that's mine
no i can't accept the life that's mine

simple living is my desperate cry
been trading love with indifference
yeah it suits me just fine
i try to hold on but i'm callous to the bone
maybe that's why i feel alone
maybe that's why i feel so alone

me, i'm rusted and weathered
barely holding together
i'm covered with skin that peels
and it just won't heal

the sun shines and i can't avoid the light
i think i'm holding on to life too tight
ashes to ashes and dust to dust
sometimes i feel like giving up
sometimes i feel like giving up

me, i'm rusted and weathered
barely holding together
i'm covered with skin that peels
and it just won't heal

the day reminds me of you
the night hides your truth
the earth is a voice
speaking to you
take all this pride
and leave it behind
because one day it ends
one day we die
believe what you will
that is your right
but i choose to win
i choose to fight
to fight

me, i'm rusted and weathered
barely holding together
i'm covered with skin that peels
and it just won't heal