the day after

well here i am. at my desk at the beginning of the end. 4 more days. then all is lost. funny how fast this has gone. how swiftly time has moved. soon the life i have known for so long will be changed forever. i welcome the change.

this weekend was a nice one. i had friday off which i didnt do much on. went to some stores, and to dinner later on in the evening. saturday, i moved. i still had some things left in the house, my computer table, my record player, the little kitchen table and i needed to move those. not too many places were open, so i just ate at a gas station. a jalapeno sausage hot dog, a big bag of doritos, and a coke. it was actually pretty darn good. after that i ended up meeting with my brother and leti for dinner. we ate at Ihop. that was better then the hot dog. after we went to leti's to watch return of the king. it was so awesome, it was the extended version with all the scenes they didn't put in the theatres. and what great scenes they were! i loved it, even if it was 4 hours long.

sunday was the best. i decided to take a day off from the moving, and visit her. i drove to houston in the afternoon and met up with her at her aunt's house. she looked as beautiful as i remember. we ended up going to the mall with her cousins, and then later to eat. after we went over to her other cousin's house to pick up her passport and ticket, because she wanted to go to the airport to see about changing her flight. the airport was so empty, so barren. that airports always haunts me. the memories of that concrete column whisper in my ears. but i made peace with it. the memories can now finally rest. i dropped her off and said the thousandth goodbye, after a milkshake and a cookie, and headed back to san antonio. it was a great day. how i missed her. her face, her hands, that stare she gives me. how it pains me to be away from that stare.

i got home late, well early morning more like it, walked into the apartment (yes i got an apartment finally). there's no furniture in it yet, and it was freezing in there. i had a sleeping bag and my blankets and laid out my bed. i was tired. the alarms woke me up at 7:30, but i didnt unzip my sleeping bag until about 8:05 am. the shower sucks. the hot water lasted about 4 1/2 minutes, and then i was freezing. i never knew that south texas could be so cold. i guess it doesn't help when your wet from the shower. i jumped in my car and turned the heater on full blast, and soon i was nice and toasty. and again, i am here. "well, I'm back." as good samwise once said.