another day! here at my desk on my break, thinking about what i'm going to eat for lunch, with A Perfect Circle blaring in my ears. Just got a few more hours, and then I'm off for a long weekend. Got tomorrow, Monday and Tuesday off. I hope this month goes by fast, being it the last one I got here. I'm not to worried. I've thought about what I want my life to be after all this, and I have selected: simple. I don't want it to be very complicated. I have always craved a simpler less complicated way of life. I have started looking for apartments, because the time of moving out is ever closer. I don't know if I'm going to get my own place, or share with my brother. If I had it my way, I would get my own place, so I can have my own space. I already know what furniture I want. My black leather couch, and the brown leather chair from Ikea. I guess I shouldnt worry about that stuff as of yet, I just need to find a decent place with a roof. It's going to be strange, living in a new place. I have been at the house for 4 years now, and it will be strange to suddenly call some place else home. Not that I ever called the house home. I guess my feelings are mixed. The early memories I have are good ones. Memories of all of us eating dinner there, hanging out, everyone in my room chilling out. I remember the winter of 2001, that's where i told Gaby that I liked her, and she told me she liked me back (which subsequently didn't mean jack). Then the later years, the memories aren't so good. Matt had moved out, and the house became vacant of that charm. I was working a lot and didn't spend much time there. I guess that year in 2002 it started the decline. I can almost pinpoint the time it did. That's the time that people started not to care. Not to clean, not to put an effort towards it. I remember, cause it included me. I just didn't care about the place, I had other things or other people on my mind. And that's how it got to where it is now. The empty, quiet, dark place that it is now. So now it's time to move on I guess. Move on to smaller, yet brighter places. I got a new car, soon a new place to call home, and soon after all this a new job. Looks like a healthy new beginning for me. You'd think I'd be worried. But i'm not, for whatever reason.
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend. Remember to be safe, stay warm and have fun wherever you may lay your head down. Adios.
4 comments:
Yeah it will be nice. Maybe a little rough at first, but nice. And where would you move? L.A.? I have no idea what's around Bakersfield. Is it by the coast? I don't remember, I'll have to look at a map. I really like the Riverside area, like when your driving into Long Beach. I've thought about moving to Cali, I have a aunt that lives in LA. It's really beautiful out there. I don't know, maybe someday.
do you remember who you are have you forgot that you are made up of beans and tortillas mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm beans i love those . anyway why do you want black leather its just so black to have black leather but thats cool if you like that sort of thing. hey check out my theory on santa being mexican ok send me a comment
do you remember who you are have you forgot that you are made up of beans and tortillas mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm beans i love those . anyway why do you want black leather its just so black to have black leather but thats cool if you like that sort of thing. hey check out my theory on santa being mexican ok send me a comment
i haven't forgotten who i am. i know i am made up of beans and rice and tortilla. i still love the government cheese my mom used to get for free. was just like velveeta. no matter where i go, i can't escape the fact i'm from San Anto, as the locals would say.
and this black couch is sweet. you just have to see it.
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